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Lost Dreams

by t-r-robinson


After years of abuse, endless struggles and, through no fault of her own, many failures, this gentle woman decides a change of lifestyle may be for the best. Several relocations, both within her adopted England and back to her homeland, eventually follow. Nevertheless, many ‘challenges’ continue to trouble her and yet again, her historic naivety and innocence are taken advantage of. She faces the potential of being shot, knifed and cut into pieces and has encounters with her homeland’s native wildlife; deadly snakes etc. Then, on top of all that, she witnesses the degrading abuse of relatives that she is powerless to prevent. Ultimately abandoning her dreams, she returns to her adopted country hoping for peace. But, it was never to be.

This is the third and final book in the abridged series recording this amazing life.


  • Amazon Review:

    Negative Beauty is the second book of the trilogy memoirs of T R Robinson. The first book, Tears of Innocence began before WWII and told of her initially happy childhood that turned into a tortured and troubled life.

    In Negative Beauty she is finally freed of an abusive marriage and with her young son anticipates an easier and happier life.

    At the beginning the author is not clear about when this part of her life occurs but based on the end of her first book and later references to the decade it cover the late fifties and sixties; a time when women were expected to be married and dependant on a husband. Attitudes of the day towards a single mother earning a living are just part of her struggles in Negative Beauty.

    The title comes from the author’s natural good looks and the difficulties that can arise when people make assumptions. In the authors’ case it included men, lesbians and pimps.

    But that’s not all she has to deal with in this period of her life. Her day to day life is frustrated with struggles of making ends meet. Juggling three jobs to make ends meet and provide for her son leads to repeated illness. Her feelings of frustration due to lack of income and doubt about the future trigger several suicide attempts. Her naivety and trusting nature makes her a target for people wanting to harm or take advantage of her.

    The writing style is very different to “Tears of Innocence” as it is largely dialogue based, telling her story through conversations and reflection. I have to admit that, at first, I wondered how this would work as a memoir. It does work extremely well and makes the reader feel like they are in the room and part of the scene being played out.

    I enjoyed reading Negative Beauty. It is not only an interesting memoir it also give great insight into viewpoints of the time and shows just how much society has moved forward in their attitudes to women.

  • I have read this book, Liked the concept and story. Captivating and great story. Nice work